Tonight I let Ollie sleep with his sisters. Claire insisted because he had been following her around for fifteen minutes as her originally-named dog "Rover." He was seen lapping up dog biscuits (cracked animal crackers) off the floor, and for that brave show of "getting into character" I allowed it. Plus, I am a push, over (and over).I half expected to spend the next two hours breaking-up who-gets-to-sleep-in-the-middle fights, or refilling bedside water glasses, but I returned some time later to see them wrapped around eachother like the character's in Klimt's The Maiden. When I removed the covers to retract i-pods from their little ears they squirmed like pups under their warm mama. I think I'd be inhumane to not think of their mother and father at that moment. What they are is missing, their gorgeous little people. It's a bag full of bittersweet.
After tucking back in the delights of my sleeping babies, I called Chup. He's in the Big Apple doing some work. When I first heard his voice on the phone he sounded tired.
"I miss you." He sighed.
"Yes, but are you going to go see some sights tomorrow?" I offered, trying to hold up my end of the energy equation.
"I don't know." He sighed again.
"You could go to visit some good stuff." Stuff, as in the lights of Times Square?
"All the world's good stuff is at home. You, our family . . ."
And after I we hung up--resolved to remember that we are padded with compassion--I set off to do the dishes, a task no one has allowed me to do in some time. I thought about what Chup said. I thought about my sister's blog (oh how I miss it's delightful updates!) which testified to his sentiments. Home is where it is at. Family is what it is all about. Prone to selfish dreaming, I need that constant reminder . . . and she was reminding me all along.
It didn't surprise us to learn that Steph's last wish--before entering that long nap of sedation--was to be able to go home and make dinner for her family. That is all she wanted to do. And she will, but not before she get some new skin and heals her willing body.
But in time, those little pups will have their (real) warm mama again. I know it.
C&S Update: Steph is having more skin graphing surgery tomorrow. Christian is taking time getting used to this new world which is now his. We wish him bravery. For the time being, he continues to feel our prayers.
SPEAKING OF NIE NIE'S BLOG . . .We'd love to hear from her readers by way of request. If you'd like us to re-post your favorite Nie Nie post please e-mail us at: vintagejane@gmail.com. Please include your name and location. We'd like a short paragraph about why you love your chosen post. Also, if you are a fellow blogger include your address so we can give you proper credit.





78 Pieces of Opinion:
Yeah about those dishes in the sink...sorry I just left mine in there. I figured you didn't have enough to do.
So true, all the worlds good stuff is at home!!
I have heard that many people can feel prayers. Put their names on the Laie, HI temple role tonight (finally!!) I hope they are that much more strengthened. They continue to be in mine. And you are too, of course. Thanks for the updates. Your family is simply amazing. You are the sisters (I never had) in the gospel as well as blog world.
I love this shot... perfect counter top, perfect light, perfect cupboards, wrinkled apron. Perfect reality. Perfectly lovely. (praying that she is dreaming of shopping lists and calphalon pans tonight...)
court, (can I call u court? :) I am a courtney too & my nicknames are court & coco :)
you have taken over nie's blog with grace. I love your honest and funny writing style! thank you for allowing us into your home. for those of us who do not know nie or christian, but have come to know them through steph's blog ~ you have truly made us feel better about the 'loss' and sadness we feel over the events this past month. it's hard to explain how close one can feel to someone who we have never met, only read blog entries.
you have filled that void with hope & grace and have made us all feel better by allowing us to experience this 'road to recovery' with your family. thank you.
you guys make me wish i had sisters!! you're doing a truly fabulous job!!
xo, courtney in dallas, TX
A message from Australia - l discovered Nie and her gorgeous family yesterday and l have filled every spare minute reading and filling my heart to the brim with all that wonderful love and happiness she shares with her family and the world.
Home is where the heart is, and l hope that Nie is home soon - till then, take care of yourself C Jane and those gorgeous children.
xx
Once again the tears are flowing. Home is all that really matters and I know Christian and Nie will be back in theirs some day where she will continue to whip up wonderful things in her beautiful kitchen. Until then there are lots of thoughts and prayers for all.
I think all the Nie readers out there who really "get" her blog want her to be back in that kitchen, cooking for her family. It is such a simple concept, but it is the reason we all feel so connected to her - we can see where she belongs, and knowing she is not there makes us all sad.
Rest up and get well again Nie! You have so many people behind you , just willing you along so you can be with your darlings again.
another post with "real love" written all over it. the comments have been thoughtful as well. we will all continue to pray for all involved knowing that... "He is always near me, though I do not see Him there
And because He loves me dearly, I am in His watchful care...So I'll be the kind of person that I know I'd like to be If I could see the Savior standing nigh, watching over me."
Wow. You have stepped into your new role with grace and confidence. Those children are so lucky to have such an unselfish family.
Has Christian been able to talk to the kids now that he's conscious?
I put Steph, Christian's and your name on the London temple prayer role last night. Prayers continue from England. Thank you for updating your blog so freuqently and with such eloquence - with everything else you have going on, I am sure it is an effort, but one well appreciated.
I think it was the right thing to let the children snuggle together. They need one another during this time of loss for them. They may be too young to fully take on board the seriousness of their parents' accident, but they are aware even if they don't have the words. Family is THE most important building block in society. Sadly under rated.
More people world wide are being touched by your words and by your family's attitude and testament than I think you will ever know.
When Stephanie is able to I'm sure she will thank you all from the bottom of her heart. She is a marathon runner in the desert. This race is the most important she has run yet.
Beautiful post. I can just picture those snuggling children! Sooo enjoying your daily updates, and praying all the time for Stephanie and Christian.
Thanks for the reminder about where it's at. I wanna buy an apron now!
Amen.
(P.S. Nie isn't the only one in the family who can find beauty in everything.)
I am so glad that you are re-posting Stephanie's bits of wisdom. I miss reading her insightful words reminding me too where my true priority lies. She made motherhood look joyful and effortless! Oh how I look forwarding to reading a brand new post from her someday! And what a day that will be! You will have to convince her to turn on the comments (just briefly) so that we may all welcome her back.
Good Morning Courtney... thank you for my morning dose of nie!!! Hope you have a happy day! Blessings, Elizabeth :)
Thanks for the update. I can just see those precious children all intertwined together....Praying for Christian and Nie!!!
I think my most favorite posts are the halloween posts. Too hard to choose which one, I love them all. But the tradtions for each holiday are just so wonderful-I grew up in a very large hispanic family where family and tradtion goes hand in hand. I wouldn't change any of those moments or memories. My family are born again christians-so to have tradtion with Christ in the mix and part of our foundation, just makes these special moments more special.
I think what is most moving is to see family rallying around family-our society has so moved away from any sort of selflessness-but to see this family more in love with each other every day, is just beautiful.
Janel in Denver
I will make dinner for my family in honour of Nie tonight. I really don't love being in the kitchen but tonight I will feel blessed by the opportunity and I will try to do it with just an iota of her pizazz.
I love this photo too. It is the picture of super stylish domesticity.
Thank you for sharing these precious moments. You are blessing so many lives then you know!
Continued prayers for you all.xo
(We love Klimt. The Kiss is our favorite. It hangs in our den.) I love the visual that your comparison to The Maiden provided. I could completely picture those beautiful children all snuggled together.
We will continue to pray for their recovery to be as quick and uncomplicated as possible.
I miss Nie's posts too. And although I love the reposts...I truly desire some fresh, new Nie inspiration. But oh, the inspiration she will provide when she is finally back in her cozy home, with her children.
My favorite was the Camp one!! Hilarious, but the other one that sticks out in my mind is the one where Mr. Nielson brings her roses when he gets home from San Fran and their kissing. So romantic and sweet. It shows that they will get through this because of their love for each other!! I hope your hubby gets home soon for you. My husband travels and I miss him when he is gone especially at night :) Your awesome!!
carlmelwhiting.blogspot.com
Chup's words are so true. That's a wise man you've got there Courtney.
I too miss NieNie's daily posts. I love that her oldie's are being re-posted. My very favorite is, "I am a Queen, look what I just did" but that was re-posted last week. So I'll have to go through her archives and find some more favs.
Thank you for sharing with us all! Especially bless you for loving those babies for your sister. Wouldn't we all do the same for our own? I am a 50 year old (gasp!) mother of five, two still at home. Nie's posts have re-invigorated me and inspired me to find some of that lost enthusiasm. I have been baking up a storm and cooking really good dinners lately! I am so grateful to be at home with my family each day and I pray the same blessing be back in Nie and Christian's lives very soon!
Still praying for all of you. I am amazed at how you have all come together to help, so unselfish and loving. I hope this time passes quickly so that you can enjoy some one on one time with your new baby and the little Nielsons can enjoy being back home with Steph and Christian. Bless you!
Man I love this picture of Nie. I would purchase notecards or a print of this if available. The post of her family at Easter with the pictures is one of my favorites, but they are all gems. My prayer for all of you.
loved the visual of the warm puppies under their mama. so sweet. so glad those kids all have each other. (and of course you & lucy!!!!!)
to me, every single one of nienie's blog posts is a gem. i just discovered her blog post-accident... but each one makes me laugh, smile, cry or get that warm fuzzy feeling. i've spent a lot of time reading her archives... but each one that you are re-posting is MY NEW FAVORITE.
keep on keepin' on. lots of prayers & hugs from Kansas City. :)
I am so glad you GET it. So many people don't. I could go and live anywhere I wanted, but why would I ever dare to leave MN again- with my family, sorority sisters, and friends so close? I don't think so. Home is where IT is at!!!
so true, sister. all of this.
and yes, bravery to christian.
You're right, of course, about home being where IT is at. I'm learning that right now.
My favorite post is up over at Nie's right now.
The Lucy/Gigs/Dog Food Bananza. I remember laughing out loud the day she posted that. :) It was fun to see it again. Thanks for reposting over there.
Hi, I was wondering if you could elaborate a bit on this. Am not sure exactly what this means? Is Christian having a tough time?
"Christian is taking time getting used to this new world which is now his. We wish him bravery. For the time being, he continues to feel our prayers."
I'm so glad the children have each other and will grow up with the same love that you share. Not all families would be so willing to do what you and your sisters have done. It's amazing and inspiring. Thank you for inspiring me...from another Courtney.
I love your words. Thank you for putting things so perfectly. I visit frequently to check on your dear sister and her hubby's progress, but I really enjoy your writing. Please keep it up!
You are a strong, brave and courageous woman. A woman after God's heart!!!!!
Wendy
Thank you so much for keeping us updated on your sister and Chrisitian's progress. Stephanie and Christian and the children are in my prayers. I will keep you and the rest of your family in my prayers as you continue to care for the Nielson clan. It is so touching to see how you pour out your love for them.
I would love it if you would repost Nie Nie's original explanation of the tradition of launching balloons filled with birthday wishes. It is such a fun, wonderful idea.
Thanks and many blessings, Ashley
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Monday, May 12, 2008
This is the post that I love, almost cherish ,if I may be so sappy, it is on how we as women are so important as Mother's, how we should nuture our homes.. nuture our children..I actually printed it off the day I read it on her blog. It is still beside my bed on my nightstand to this very day. It continues to inspire and remind me what my job is as a Mom, what is TRULY important. That is what your sister did best, reminding us to cherish our jobs as Mom's. I miss her posting on her blog. But you are doing a great job keeping us all along for the "journey" and now you are the one inspiring us...thanks, Marie
Hello Courtney,
How beautiful that image you left us with of the children all snuggled together drawing comfort from each other and from your presence and love as well. I hope they were having good dreams of their mommy and daddy!
It would break my heart(as I know it would yours) to think of them crying into a pillow or something... being scared or just from the ache of wanting their parents and even though they obviously know on some level that things aren't "normal," they are so very fortunate to have you,your husband, Lucy and family to hold them and love them and offer them reassurance that no matter what, everything is going to be okay! I continue to hold you all in my prayers. You are doing a GREAT job and they are obviously content and comforted in your presence! Be gentle with yourself, Courtney. You also have a lot on your plate so to speak and so don't be surprised if sometimes you just feel overwhelmed. Remember, this too shall pass and before we know it Nie and Christian will be home with their babies and enjoying the simple gifts we've been given. Hugs, Lori
oh gosh, i need to stop reading these at work!
does anyone else scroll down to the bottom to get the update before reading the rest??
i so look forward to the day when Nie can blog again, tell us what she dreamt about, show us what's for supper.
as always, your family is in my prayers.
Sometimes being a pushover is wonderfully right.
Prayers that she gets to fix that dinner sooner rather than late.
I love those cupboards!
my favorite of nie's is "I am a Queen", it just melts me. in fact, reading Nie and you have shown me a whole new side of myself. the side that wants to be maternal, that wants to be with family, that wants a sense of spirituality in my life, that wants to love my husband more. thank you thank you. i think i speak for more than just me when i say that your family's tough time has been a blessing in disguise for those of us who are being show what real unconditional love is. thank you
I would have to say that my favorite was when Oliver was the Colonel General and Nie was his fair maiden. I love that she took time out of her busy day to have a moment with one of her babes.
www.tommyandgina.blogspot.com
you are an awesome sister! you are talented and loving in every way! you are doing the best service that your sister would need at this time. hold strong!
marie
Good for you for tackling those dishes! It's my dreaded task at the close of each day.
I've always enjoyed the thought that our homes are our personal Zion. You and your family are making that sentiment so true.
C Jane- Thank you for taking the time to update us all and letting us be a part of your family. As a mother I can't think anything worse than being seperated for my children and my dear sweet love.
One of my favorites post of Nie's is My Testimony of Christ. December 07. I think it is her testimony and that of your family that is carrying you through this trial.
Kim from Texas
http://thec7gang.blogspot.com/
You write so beautifully about Stephanie and Christian's children and your family. Thank you for continuing to share with the blogging world.
I'm praying for them every day, especially for strength and healing of their bodies, comfort for their minds and relief from pain, and good dreams of home and family while sedated.
And yes, Chup is right, you are right, nie nie is right... all the best stuff is at home!
I love how you speak of the children as your babies. They truly are yours too. I'm filled with gratitude that you were chosen to be their Aunt and that you could love them as if they were the one who gave birth to them. You inspire me Courtney.
I can feel the struggle to uphold, to keep the warmth, the fire burning. You guys are doing such a good job. It is really upsetting to think of Nie wanting to go home and make dinner for her family, it's just such a sharp contrast to her situation. But, (remember Pee Wee? " All my friends have big butts! ) what a miracle that that family is being cared for and nourished while she is healing, cared for in such a personal, intimate, loving way. What a gift.
ps
i TOTALLY hear you about keeping your end up of the energy quotient. that is so much of the balance of marriage.
you rock.
I've always loved that picture of the Nie.
How long will your husband be in NYC? My husband films the new TV show Fringe... I could maybe get him in to visit the set.
Oh, thank you for reminding us all where the "good stuff is". It's so true.
I've posted your buttons on my blog. I hope it leads more and more prayers and help your way.
You mentioned Christian's new world but we're not sure what that is. Is he able to be awake and visit Steph? Is he able to eat and talk? Please inform us. We are praying so hard!!
http://nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/2005/12/broken-latte-pieces-glued-tradition.html
I laughed so hard when Oliver threw oatmeal in her hair. Plus I love the bowls!
http://nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/2005/11/that-old-familiar-smirk.html
I love what Claire shouts at the end!
http://nieniedialogues.blogspot.com/2006/10/ollie-indian-warrior-part-2.html
I love how Stephanie comes up with creative ways to describe her days. I went back and read all her posts like I was reading a book. I would suddenly burst out laughing at some things. I have way more favorites but will go for 3 random ones so far :)
Natali McKee of Las Vegas
(BTW, down the road, when Stephanie is feeling better, I would love to take Little Nie and show her around Vegas :)
Your family is in our prayers.
Thanks for all your updating and taking care of the children. I am praying for you. I was wondering if you could give us a little more detail on what is going on with Christian being concious and such. We care, a lot. You could NEVER give us too much detail.
yes, please please give us more details! we're desperate to know anything!
of course we also respect that it is a very personal time for your family and some details should definitely remain private, but anything you can give us we will take!
much love xox
my heart breaks for your sister and her husband and their beautiful children. thank God that they have you in their life. what a wonderful aunt you are!
many prayers and hugs!
hope you got a photo of them snuggling like that together! that way their mom and dad won't really have missed a thing if you are documenting it for theM!
tara
Brave is a hard thing to be! Reading your comments made me think of how BRAVE it was to submit to Father's will in a garden long ago. It wasn't easy for Him either, but the mission was fulfilled and the glory given. Continuing to pray for you!
Everyday I get on this blog and just wish that I could be so positive and insightful on a daily basis. I also wish that you would post every hour on the hour because I love it so much. Thank you for showing what this life is about and for showing me that I can stop take some time and well enjoy it!
I put Nie and Christian on the temple role here in Atlanta and really hope as you say they can feel it!
What a beautiful picture you have painted in my mind. I am glad to hear that they are improving as well. Again I am amazed at how incredibly blessed they are to have such a wonderful family to take care of their children while they are unable to.
Thank you for making time to update. I am not gifted with expression, as you are. But I wanted to tell you that I log on daily for updates. The first reading is to learn of their progress. The second, is to marvel at your beautiful prose.
Stephanie is not the only gift to us. Thank you for introducing me to your exceptional family. You are all new friends to me and I pray for you daily.
Just another testiment of how true the gospel of Jesus Christ is. We love each of you deeply in our hearts. Thank you for allowing us to live this journey in your home with you. I live in Mesa...and want so badly to see Christian & Stephanie. I too have felt a deep strong closeness to the Nielsen family...Perhaps we knew each other in the pre-existence. I think so...as we are all brothers and sisters trying to return with our Heavenly Father. Thank you for your love...that you share with the world through your entries....your journal!
Thank you Clark and Nielsen families for graciously sharing your wisdom, wit and allowing us a peek into your lives. We are better people because of your example and because you, each, are enlightening our path. Our prayers for you and Chup and Lucy and your precious ones (now 5 of them). Our love and prayers are always there for your parents and siblings, who are each doing their part in this tremendous undertaking of care and support.
My favorite Nie Nie post is the one shown today, "Mothers who Know". Oh! how the world needs "Mothers who KNOW!" today. We love you, Thank you!
Ma'ama T.
Thank you for re-posting nienie's response to Julie Beck's talk. Those are some amazing and much-needed essays.
I miss her daily posts too. And I am really enjoying yours in the interim. I will be really really happy when I open her blog one day and see a new post THAT SHE POSTED
I love that pic of NIE. She looks so domestic.
I cannot wait to get home each day from work and look for an update. You guys are so strong. I pray for you daily. I love to look at your blog. Nie's pics are beautiful - she is so energetic. I love the vintage look and this photo is amazing - something the children will cherish always. You are doing so well to take on all of her kids and your new one - she is blessed to have a sis like you, not a lot of families could do it full time and have it fit like a puzzle. Your strength is encouraging.
Sending good thoughts and love to you and your family ♥
I just "met" your family after your appearance on the Today show, and can't get enough. My 4 year old sustained small 2nd and 3rd degree burns on her arm & back just a few days after Stephanie & Christian's accident. Not nearly the same magnitude as your situation. Your family is so lucky to have each other, and the deep appreciation for all your gifts. Every entry inspires me to try to reach your level of grace.
If you can, please do share more details if you can. God bless.
You know, some of my fondest moments as a mom are when I peek in on the kids at night and see them all cuddled up together. Stephanie will sure love reading these posts one day, just as you'll love having such tender memories.
I see she subscribes to Everyday Food -- I have a shelf in my kitchen that looks like that! What a glamorous cook, though ... :-)
Glad to hear that they are doing better !!! I would love to help but since i Don't really know you the silent actions will have to do
Form a Snowflake Girl
Hanna
it might be too personal but i also wonder about the exactnesses of the situation. i love your posts but wonder about so much for example: what is skin grafting? how does it work or not work?
Thank you for sharing your life story with pure honesty & just the right touch of comedy...and you share it with the rest of the world. A friend of mine told me about your blog, and I am hooked, truly touched by your story. What you are doing right now, obviously, is what any sister would/should do for her sister - and, I would do the same for my sister, because I would love her children as my own... But, there is just something special about you...and every day I keep coming back to see what you have to write. Thanks!
anon,
try wikipedia. it answers all my questions (besides, i doubt cjane has the time right now!)
I don't know Stephanie or Christian, though I live in Mesa, but I have heard bits and pieces of their story and my heart just breaks for your family. What you have done for them in taking in their children, along with many other things is the true definition of selfless service. I think the greatest blessing that they must have in their lives right now is you and your family, for taking such good care of their babies while they are fighting. I tear up just thinking about it. You make it seem so effortless and it makes my heart happy that while their lives have been turned upside down, they are so well taken care of. The world is truly better for having people like you (and you family) in it. Thank you for all your thoughtful writing. You've helped put a few things in perspective for me today after a long day. May the Lord bless you all.
Stephanie in Mesa, AZ
this is my first comment, cjane. i came across your blog months ago (when you all did that guest blogging thing)and have become a regular reader since your sister's accident. you have such wonderful perspective and write so beautifully. thank you.
will you so kindly post this tofu with curry recipe if you have it (when you get the chance)? i'm making the chocolate crockpot cake this sunday for a social i'm having at my house. it's been quite a few years since i've tried to cook with tofu. didn't go so well the last time, but tofu and curry sound worth another try.
That little Ollie is so sweet! I am so glad so many people are helping Stephanie!
You are doing an amazing job. I can't imagine suddenly being a mother to many after just starting the amazing journey of motherhood with the chief. Home is where it's at, all the time, through thick and thin. Thanks for being the example in life of the command that I give my girls..."you are always each other's first best friend" and "we are family, and we stick together". We are praying for you all the time...and will support the sale if I can ever snatch anything up!
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