
In the beginning of the book there is a story about a prophet named Lehi who is told by the Lord that the great city of Jerusalem is about to be destroyed (which it was). He takes his family and departs into the unknown wilderness leaving behind him a world of luxury. As I read this morning, I noticed that when Lehi and his family were tucked away in the throes of untamed wildlife he built an altar, and with an offering, he thanked the Lord for safe travels.
Reading of Lehi's gratitude made me scribble "daily" in the margins of my book. I need to build an altar and make an offering on a daily basis. I've noticed that when I get behind in recognizing the astonishing amount of blessings in my life I become ungrateful. Isn't that weird?
So all day long today I've thought about the foundation of my altar, and what I could possibly offer as a means to thank the Lord for my daily bread. I understood that the only acceptable offering is personal sacrifice (those things that give us simple broken hearts and contrite spirits). Like for Lehi it was probably a fatted cow. I have so many fatted cows around here . . . in fact here is one right here . . .
But really. What would be my sacrifice?
My answer came this afternoon as we sat in the den lamenting our snowed-in state. The boys and I were on the floor creating towers of various layouts with brand new wood blocks (thanks Lindsay!) When the architect of each tower was satisfied, the others were allowed to knock the whole structure over in a dramatic fashion. And repeat until it bores.
Here was my altar, built out of wood blocks, stacked up as high as balance would allow. And my offering? An afternoon downstairs with Ollie, Gigs and The Chief. Even letting my brilliant towers be whacked to wrecked blockages. It is a meager something, but it is something. My way of expressing gratitude for the ability to expend time as wanted. And (much) more.
I am so relieved to know that it doesn't take more than sincerity to please the Lord. I lack a lot of controlled genuine moments in my life, but when I play blocks with the boys I mean it. Heaven Oh Mighty I mean it! I stack with sweat and concentration that would permanently furrow. If towers make my altar, and time is my offering, I can certainly resolve to do it daily.
But remember this: in twenty-or so years when my house quiets down a bit I think I might go to architecture school. You should see the way I can structure! Talk about hidden talents.



67 Pieces of Opinion:
How can you not be the Best Major Blog after a post like that??
Ya know, I needed to read that tonight.
You are food for the soul my Courtney!!
I build incredible structures with my kids all the time and I even let them knock it down over and over. I love it. Block building is the funnest!!!!
Sounds like the heavens were teaching the same lesson at the same time. I was just playing Barbies with my daughters this afternoon thinking the exact same thing. I realized that slowing down and just enjoying my girls and what THEY wanted to do was the best gift I could give them right now. Good for us today! Here's to remembering to do it again tomorrow.
hansenrocks@netzero.net
May I suggest reading the Bible in a year as well.
If you go to architecture school before me I am never speaking to you again.
Just to be clear, cjane loves to read the Bible as well.
Thanks
-cjane PR
Yes I really understand/live this even though I am not Mormon or sure I believe in any kind of God, really, I do believe in these things.
Ah. Alters and sacrifices. Thanks for the food for thought. Enjoy those blocks and time spent with the boys.
Great post!!! I needed to hear it today too when my gratitude was hard to find.
It's amazing how you can hear something over and over your whole life, but when you hear it in a slightly different light it's like you're hearing it for the first time. Thank you for sharing your insights. It's definitely something I needed a reminder of.
Oh, and I'd love to see some of your amazing block creations! That is if you can snap a pic before the walls some tumbling down :).
What a beautiful post. I have loved reading Lehi's story the last few months - it has taken on new meaning living here in the Holy Land. Thank you for allowing one more beautiful point to stick out. You're awesome.
WOW! Seriously, I covet your writing. You are amazing. Thanks for the story...it's fun to see how people liken the scriptures to themselves:-)
I love this! Thank you, Courtney! We had a lot of block-building going on at our house today too. And look, there's my sister, the first commenter. Check her out! She's awesome....and speaks truth.
my darling husband can create so much out of our one box of duplo lego.. he visuals and just starts building...
I on the other hand.. HATE PLAYING BLOCKS!! and rarely do... I try to sneak away once the kids are building..
so you win against me there... you play blocks and you mean it :)
You are a beautiful soul Courtney! I aspire to be as you are, happy even in times of tradgedy. My son has been sick w/ breathing problems recently using his snazzy new penguin nebulizer. He stays up all hours coughing so hard he gags. I get so tired I become frustrated and just want to breakdown and sob! but, I try to just relax and remember that unlike others in the world who have lost their children I still have mine. I may be tired but, I can always sleep later peacefully knowing mt children are here to love and enjoy. Thank you for reminding us all that there is beauty in everything. Even snazzy little penguin nebulizers buzzing in the night.
mandied79@yahoo.com
prague, ok
I have been reading your blog for a couple of months now and really enjoy it. This post though, prompted me to open your actual page and comment.Thankyou for this great post. I am not a Mormon, infact most mormons would probably call me a heathen maybe LOL I guess I believe in a higher being of sorts, maybe a Goddess of the Universe or similar. But I really felt touched by this post. It is so simple to take the everyday for granted I think it is important to say thanks even just by acknowledging the day and the mundane at times. Just lovely.
BTW, I have read the BOM though!
The post is inspiring!
I hope Stepahie was somewhere in the house enjoying the sounds of this altar building.
Becca
You are awesome! I love this post. Thanks for sharing your insight with us always.
awww I like that...and as I read it, I looked out the front window of my town house and saw my one armed vietnam vet of a nieghbor outside shoveling the snow away from the outside of my car.
I am thankful Lord... for a kind neighbor that struggles with a his disability yet still finds a way to do kind things for others. :)
Yes, slowing down, being so mindful of your time with the children. This is what it is all about!
nicely thought-- my time is my great sacrifice.
seriously though you had me at the blocks-- I have a sickness when it comes to blocks, plain wood ones, wood with water filled window centers, bead filled, middle eastern temple blocks, skyscraper blocks(we add mirror tiles so we can make flat roofed ubercool modern structures) Yes I live out my architectural fantasies on the playdroom floor- there and in my tub with dwell magazine
I don't make towers. My son and I make little villages. This is actually one of my favorite things to do with him. We make store signs and everything.
We sit back and tell each other what we imagine is happening right now in the town. WAY FUN!!!!
I guess I will use that as my offering to the Lord as well. I'm also happy to do it!!
Happy Wednesday!
hi there ! I love the way you write, and always am sad when the last word passes my eyes, but then I think oh Tomorrow! ...and can't wait! Hugs and thank you Donna
Ah yes! Just what I needed to hear! Isn't it funny that we can read that BOM and Bible a hundred times and then suddenly a scripture that has always been there jumps out and makes complete sense in a way we never thought of?! Love that!
I also love that you shared it. AND the way you shared it. Too fun!
Yesterday I read a sign that said 'too blessed to be stressed'. I decided to make that my New Year Theme for 2009. Thanks for reminding me to build an alter daily and express gratitude there for all the 'little' things. Awesome post.
I have been reading your blog for a while. I served my mission in Kentucky with Christian. I was never in the same area as him but I served with many missionaries in his zone and everyone adored hime. He was a legend in our mission.(my name is Jori Jeppson Sister John on the mission:)Anyway This post just answered a prayer for me. I currently have two children My first is 5 after I had her I've had fertility issues and later was diagnosed with melanoma,I've been advised even if I could get pregnant that I shouldn't because it could fire up my cancer again. After surgery and getting my cancer under control we decided to become foster parents with the intent of adopting those we foster. Six months ago we were blessed with the sweetest six month old baby girl, her adoption should be final in about 4 months. We just bought a new house and thought it would be nice to get another child. yesterday I was called and asked to take a sibling group of 4.(ages 5,4,3,1) SO that would give me 6 kids 5 and under. WOW! I've been thinking this would be great but SO crazy. After being healed from my cancer I was overwhelmed with gratitude willing to do anything to serve the Lord. I have been cancer free for almost 9 months. Lately I have found myself slipping in the gratitude department. My husband and I have been praying about what to do. This post just jumped right out at me. "Use sacrifice to show gratitude" Thank you! This was exactly what I needed today.
Well said and very encouraging! You remind us all to find joy and blessings in the simple things of life. Thank u.
I miss the "alters" my daughters and I used to build! They were made of fresh new blocks and often took the form of ballrooms with a dance floor for Belle and the Beast figurines! Oh, how they danced! No knocking down of ballrooms!!
Well Said 'sister'
We love you dearly....
Hugs-
How about that reaization on 'all the Lord asks is for real sincerity'! Very true. The Lord in his infinite widsom knows us and our hearts. I always try to remember this when I feel like I am not quite getting 'THERE' you know. And the more I simplify my world the more comforted I feel and the Lord's spirit pours into mine!
I love this analogy! Thanks for always making me think and helping raise my spirit to a higher plane. And I mean it with all sincerity!
Oh thank you, thank you. Exactly what I needed to hear today. You are my inspiration!
I love this--thank you.
"I am so relieved to know that it doesn't take more than sincerity to please the Lord...If towers make my altar, and time is my offering, I can certainly resolve to do it daily."
Wait. There's a lack of humility in this sentence that troubles me, and it's missing a theological step. How do you "know" that it doesn't take more than sincerity to please the Lord? (By that rule, a bad guy could sincerely wish to please God while continuing to be a bad guy.) You're jumping from the "if" of "If towers make my altar" to the assumption that they ARE an altar at which you're sacrificing. Shouldn't it be God who makes that call?
I'm not saying that you don't make tons of sacrifices--far more than most people are asked to make. Nor am I saying your block analogy is incorrect. I'm saying that I don't think you, or your readers, can assume it's correct.
That was beautiful, as always. I love your thoughts.
Well, you just offered me the last tiny piece of straw. My stubbornness regarding rereading the BOM is officially broken. Thanks, Jane, or inadvertently guilting me into doing the right thing.
I am not a Mormon so take this for what it's worth to you. One of my friends once spoke beautifully about building altars to the Lord through journaling. She said that every time we journal a struggle where the Lord has been faithful, we build an altar. We can return back to those written words time and time again to see His goodness and celebrate His past mercies. And we know from those past victories that He will be faithful again, that He does not let us fall. So...blocks can be altars and journals can be altars of a different kind. I'd say this blog is an altar!
xoxo
Flicka
Ann: how are you defining "bad"? I interpret sin as knowing God's will and going against it; until we know His will, we may transgress, but cannot sin. With this understanding, I propose that if a person consistently tries with real intent to please God, that is the best they can do and God will accept and sanctify their efforts, however mislead they may be.
-C.A.
Beautiful! Simplicity is something that I treasure.
Thank you so much for your sweet comment. It made my day! :)
Hi CJane, I don't know you (well I mean, I feel like I do from reading your blog for the past 6 months but I do realize that is only cyberspace...) Anyway, I start reading the BOM every year too, but every year I start to lose steam somewhere around 2nd Nephi. In 2009 I decided to change that soooo I started a Book of Mormon reading blog called twopagesaday.blogspot.com. It's really basic, just 2 pages of text every day and then a few comments. I was really moved by the altar that Lehi built too and my comments yesterday were all about that. If you get in a pinch for time and need a quick place to read your BOM I hope you'll check it out sometime! Thank you for all of your inspiration and laughs! I'm voting for you!
Answer to Anonymous: By saying "bad guy"--a bit too jauntily, I confess--I was trying to avoid the more judgmental "sinner"--a word that would have been especially out of place in the context of Courtney's blog. My original sentence was, "By that rule, a sinner could sincerely wish to please God while continuing to sin." I was talking about intention vs. action.
Your suggestion that a *conscious* sinner can't sincerely wish to please God is a good one. But I believe that there are people who know they're sinning and yet can't stop themselves. --But see, this is why I wanted to avoid the word "sin" in the first place--it takes us awfully far away from the point I was addressing in Courtney's blog!
Thank you for the perspective. Sometimes I feel like I need to be doing huge things to show my love and gratitude. This helped me to remember that by small and simple things we can show love and appreciation.
Thanks for that reminder, I needed it :)
I love that thought Flicka. Some more altars to think about . . .
Loved it, thanks!
That blog entry is priceless. Wonderful!
Thanks for ALL you do!
Ann:
If a person cannot stop themselves from sinning but is truly trying to do so, they are still doing the best they can. How could God ever expect better than our best from us? He will sanctify.
C.A.
why don't you read the bible? it is the foundation and the book of mormon is the addition.
courtney, your redesign is beyond wonderful. your photo is gorgeous and i love the angel wings. it looks like the design of the actual very best major blog. you are very inspiring, and really really funny. and smart. awesomeness=cjane.
Dear Sally,
To restate the point made above:
Just to be clear, cjane loves to read the Bible as well.
Thanks
-cjane PR
i feel a little guilty now after reading this post, i'm now on my way to play the afternoon away with my boys!!!
You're the BOM. (So am I.)
And so is your new header. You made me laugh. Thanks.
How GOOD does you new blog desing look?????????????? WOW!
Courtney, from the glimpses given into your life the last several months it's clear to me that you build your alters not only daily but beautifully.
As prosaic as it may seem, it feels that sometimes the simplest things in life, like gratitude, come down to simple discipline - practice gratitude, feel gratitude.
When I forget to be thankful for the small blessings, I get increasingly ornery with my lot in life. When I remember on a daily basis, joy and contentment abound!
Funny, isn't it.
Hi Courtney,
Where to begin? I started by reading NieNie and then moved to your blog. I have been struggling with conversion to Mormon...I have met with several missionaries, and been to church. I have questioned because I thought that I could not live up the standard that I thought I had to....but what I have learned from you and your family is that it seems we all struggle..so should I give up on something that has been tugging at my heart for so long because I am so afraid that I am not good enough? I am thinking that maybe I should take the plunge and hope that all those in the ward will accept me as I am, faults and all....what do you think? I can change I think, but slowly. There is so much that I love and feel a fit with in LDS...especially Womens Relief Society... I love it!!! In my opinion, you are serving a mission on this blog..you are showing those of us interested in LDS what it is really about..and you are starting to change my mind... I would love to talk to you. God Bless you. Please pray for me as I try to find my place as I pray and think of you and your entire family... I never miss a day reading your blog.
Marci W.
mwhitmire@gpc.admworld.com
I love the new header!
Love the new header. Again your combination and display of the same words I know (and use on a daily basis) astonishes and impresses me.
Time flies when I'm blowing time and casting aside my New Year's resolutions. But in the last few minutes of 2008, God whispered these words into my life, and things just haven't been the same since (all those seven days ago): trust, believe, belong, and do.
Today's word verification is FLAYSIZE. How do they come up with these things? :o)
Cjane you so rock. I too have been thinking about how practicing gratitude for a multitude of blessings is vital to my happiness. Your posts remind me to been so in the moment, every moment, and I thank you.
PS: I ordered a Nie t-shirt and it just arrived! Love it! So glad to hear all are on the mend. GOD IS GOOD!
Peace-
Melis
Thank You again Courtney!!! You are amazing
You are like an internet gospel doctrine teacher and you teach a great object lesson! :)
By the way there are many years ahead to cultivate your block building skills. I am now on my second generation of tower creating and destructing. I think it gets better with grandkids because you couldn't give a hoot what work isn't getting done! Aging Rocks!
Courtney, YOu are surely an inspiration to me. YOur writing talents are shared with the world in a such a tremendous way that I hope you will allow us to read your daily blogs. YOu inspire me to be a better me each and every day, as does Nie with her blogs. I am excited for her to start writing again. OH by the way... I have Clarks in my family.. we might have some distant relatives that are the same people.....
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