I want a lot of children.
I want their little grubby hands all over me--pulling my hair, squeezing my face, pulling at the bottom of my dresses. I want to dip them in the tub before bedtime and snuggle with their soft bodies when they cry in the night. I want their baby breaths, their toddler tantrums and whatever comes after that. I want to make early morning pancake breakfasts in my fuzzy robe, bed head flapping, children waiting--flipping so many pancakes my wrists are sore.
I want so many children that I call them seven wrong names before I get the right one.
I want a house so full of children that when I open a door or a window, bodies pour out.
I want more children than Chup can remember--
Is this one ours, or the neighbor's?
Here is the problem--mainly--with that wanting:
My ego.
My ego insists on wrapping itself around everything I can't control. Like The Chief at church. I can't control The Chief's disinterest in reverence and it's making me feel like a lackluster mother.
Plus, the Sabbath Day Chase is making my love of wearing sexy shoes to church next to impossible. Asking my ego to forgo fashion is devastating (and I wish I were using that word lightly) did I sign up for this part?
But then, Sister Newly Married from the nursery says to me, "You dress him so cute every week," and my ego inflates to an uncontrollable blimp. Because it is true, my ego dresses him and I think he's one smartly dressed
. . . irreverent human chimpanzee. Sometimes I can't help but swoon myself.
Oh and I can't control Ever's love of snuggling--not that I'd want to--but that little girly likes to burrow herself into my being until we both are skins of sweat. Then! Then I can't control my desire to snuggle her more. Damp babies are like adorable amphibians--there is a compulsion to touch. And ok, lick. Just a little.
Problematically, children come equipped with an irresistible attraction--a severe sphere of undeniable lure. I can't go one hour without asking The Chief for a hug and a kiss and a hug and another kiss. And maybe, just one more hug. And one more kiss. (Two more.)
Sometimes I trade affection for Popsicles.
It makes me feel so vulnerable and . . . cheap.
They will make you love them, these entities called children, they will. It's sick how well they do it too. Just when you want to lock yourself away for the next forty years they do something like apologize "sworry" and you are back to where you started. And my ego, my tender ego, can't handle such intense manipulation.
And maybe worst of all, I let them control my brain power until I can barely finish a sentence. What was I saying?
Oh brain power, right. I am a maternal zombie. I wander the world with once-lukewarm, white regurgitation crusted on my clothes, draped with extra pounds on my body and postpartum hair that has started falling out. In three months I'll try--but fail--to control patches of wispy baby hairs popping out all over my skull. And I do it all for the love of little teeny tiny people who will grow up to be not so teeny tiny and not so dependent and probably not so much in love with me as they are today. Is that so wrong?
What is my ego going to do with all this . . . this . . . overwhelming loss of control? Learn to be humble? Learn to appreciate the uncontrollable elements? Learn to lose myself in this cause with the hope that I will find myself someday? And what will more children create in my life? More chaos, more blessings, more hugs and kisses hugs and kisses hugs and kisses? I am bursting at the seams, it seems.
No more! I can't take it!
I want so many children I'd have to buy an entire laundromat to keep up with the washings, but my ego tells me to shoot for three.
Maybe . . . four.
Probably three.
I am c jane and maybe four. Chup says.
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110 Pieces of Opinion:
well, you make beautiful ones- so i say go for a dozen! ;-)
I want a lot of children too. If it weren't for the dishes, the washing, the cooking, the tantrums, if I could just spend all day playing, reading, being with them and not worrying about any of the 'other' bits I think I would have a hundred. As it is, one at a time.
Seems we are often fighting our egos as wives and mothers. Loved the post--and loved the gentle reminder to request a heck of a lot more kisses from my children. And I agree with Chup: four.
Four sounds great, can't have an odd number. This is coming from a middle child! Love your blog! Glad you are back, I've been missing you this past week!
Having three sisters myself, I agree with Chup that four is the perfect number.
Ask me again after having had my first though :)
This post was simply the sweetest thing! It makes me so excited to be a mother. I love how you find joy in all things motherhood, even the hard parts! Seriously, you inspire me! :)
And it doesn't hurt that your children are beyond adorable! Thanks for writing!
--Shelby
such a lovely description that my brain is too muddled to conjure up. :) loved it.
Oh cjane this was beautiful! I believe you got your Bloggin MOJO back!!!!!
Children are amazing.....and oh my, Ever is adorable!
I loved this post. Your writing. I read it so fast...probably like you wrote it. Gobbling every bit of it up and then wanting to go snuggle and gobble up my children who are sound asleep in bed...ages 8 and 13. Yes, at 8, I still want to gobble him up. The 13 year old...well she is a girl...and has a bit of attitude. Some days, she's not so gobblelicous...she is sour. But then I take her cheeks in mine and gobble all up and down the sides and it ends in a big fat hug!
Thank you for reminding me of my uncontrollable love for my children. I'm off to bed now.
So funny that you write this tonight. Here I am sitting at my computer at 1:30 in the morning wishing I was sleeping because I too have a newborn (2 1/2 months) and a 2 year old and I know I am going to be exhausted tomorrow. But, I had one of those days where I ended it feeling like I feel short in all areas of my life. It drives me nuts. I fell short in my mom skills, wifey skills, church callings, house, work, etc. I can't control it all!
My boys are the best things that ever happened to me, but I think we'll be done at three too. I need my (somewhat) order!
SO much truth in what you wrote. I envy those who are more relaxed and go with the flow in the parental department. My ego is comfortably challenged with four...but I still ask my husband on occasion (when they are all four being awesome at the same time) "Do you think we should have had more?" He's positive four was our number, though. *sigh*
I am currently trying to tame that wispy baby hair. Baby number four made my hair fall our like no tomorrow.. now its back and sticking up everywhere!
I say to everyone who asks How many children are you having "One at a time" :)
I also say to everyone I cant have any more cause my husband is too old! lol Even though I love these kids... I do want them to LEAVE someday, so I can enjoy retirement :) So if you want them gone by 60/70 you gotta stop at 40!! lol
I feel i can barely keep up house, dishes washing etc with four.. so maybe thats a good time to stop!
I'm one of four, and its a really nice number- justg saying :) and your are really cute, so the more the better :)
Do you know, it is amazing how some women are just born to be mothers and want more and more children. it totally fascinates me. your children are both incredibly beautiful. you should totally be having a dozen- Chup will love it.
PS- Glad you're over writers block.
go for it! I started having babies at 30 and am having number 4 this year at 34, I'm going for 5. They are always beautifully dressed, at church we sit at the very back and thankfully most of the time someone else's child is making more noise than mine. Thankfully at 4 my eldest is almost angelic at church and I hope the rest will follow suit!
go for it I say!
mind you I am upgrading the washing machine next year to the biggest top loader I can get, I am always shopping for clothes for one of them, we have the biggest pile of lost socks but gosh they are so cute!
corrie:)
families with more than 4 children ought to be required to have
a) a commercial sized washer and dryer (the one that cost $4/load at the 'mat)
or
b) two sets of residential washers and dryers
Your mother will verify this information. Promise.
I know what you mean about the baby breath thing. I can't get enough of my 6 month old daughter's breath. Sometimes I pick her up and stick my nose in her mouth and breath in deep for a good snuggle. It makes me feel all warm inside. That sounds a little weird but I promise it's 100% love:)
Oh and YES, snuggling at night. I'm the worst. Sometimes Eloise will be perfectly asleep in her own bed and as I'm getting into mine I will wake her up just to snuggle down with her as I breast feed even though she wasn't really hungry at all.
You just never know until you know--and it might surprise you that, after the fourth one turns 2, you still have a burning desire to . . . eh . . . lick another newborn. Barely post-postpartum, when you're finding hair everywhere and you wear perpetual spit-up, is never the right time to decide these things. I've always wished I'd had one more! =0)
Great post!
Hooray! Great post! I just read an article about a study that found that babies that are shown more affection by their mothers grow up more confident and secure. What that says to me is that they can't possible be smooched to death...or too much.
Love it!! I want lots of children too- I just love them...But we're done at 3....
i've been reading your blog for two years, have never commented, and that, my dear, is my FAVORITE post. not only are you are a phenomenal writer, you explained the contradiction between wanting to eat your children up with your love and wanting to be a plain ol' regular girl with cool shoes on her feet perfectly. thanks.
I have three... would LOVE four...
awwwww...so much for writers block...I think you took the advise of a reader and talked about your babies!!! Good job!
The way you write, makes me hope you get a thousand…wonderfully put!
I want four too! Maybe five. Which means I have four or five to go.
Love this post.
The Duggars look like a happy bunch! I enjoy your blog CJane!!!
cjane, i can't wait to be a mom!!! thank you for loving your family and your children and reminding us that we get the greatest joy from them.
Amen!! I hate to be pregnant, but here I am snuggling 8 month old baby # 4 and wondering when I can get another one!
I love the way your express yourself. You put into words how I really feel inside. I've never commented before, but I just loved this post (and your entire blog!).
Soon to be Mommy of 3! :) (We say maybe 4 too!)
So fun to read this. I relate to it all! Except for the little chimpanzee looking cute each Sunday. We've got some hot weather lately so he's been wearing a white polo with some shorts and crocs. But doesn't my ego lament this fact every Sunday =) Thanks for writing!
Your back!! Oooh, I love this post, pefectly describes my life with 9 children...truly, it does! My ego, my heart, my family its a life-full!
You make 'em so stinkin' cute why not? I tied my tubes after 2, but my almost 3 year old still co-sleeps and must be sweating on me 100% of the night! She is the snuggliest, yummiest thing on the planet! :-)
Oh, I know that ego. I have two beautiful girls (29 months and [almost] 7 weeks). This post sums up my thoughts exactly, with the exception of crazy pregnancies on my part. My pregnancies have definitely influenced the number I throw around in terms of children I want. (I lose too much weight in the beginning, even on the strongest anti-nausea medicine, and once the morning sickness starts wearing off a few weeks into my second trimester [18 weeks this time], the pre-term labor/hospitalizations begin.) My heart and motherly love say I can sacrifice any part of me for my little babies, but my ego has increasingly been saying otherwise. I think I have one pregnancy left in me, and I [not so] secretly hope I have twins. Four seems nicer than three for some reason...but two is pretty sweet as well.
AMEN!
couldn't have said it better myself, but I think ALL those same thoughts. daily. hourly. sometimes in a single minute.
Thank you.
Three is wonderful cause one parent still has a free HAND!!!! with 3 you are out numbered and they KNOW IT. with 4 they just gang up on you. but 3 is wonderful.
love reading your blog mainly cause you live the exciting life I thought I was going to have when I was young. hahaha got steered another way. 9 states and one foreign country. MOVING was my life. we did good.
Five is also a good number. I just had my fifth and it's just lovely. Even if people look at us a little funny whenever we go anywhere. "Are they ALL yours?" people ask.
"Delightfully so," I tell them. Thing is, by the time number five comes along, number one is old enough to really help.
I'm good with five though. Six would mean I'd have to drive a different car, and though typing that made me seem really shallow, I don't want to drive something big enough to hold that many!
I'm pregnant with our fourth. I think four is a good number, but don't tell that to my Pope! ;) Seriously, all jokes aside, we can't have anymore after this (medical reasons for me) but if we could, I would. In fact this one was a surprise and a miracle enough!
And pancake flipping keeps everyone happy.
Oh Cjane, I can tell you guys are going to have a house full of sweet babies. They are our reward, indeed.
I always wanted a BUNCH of kids, until I really realized how rampant the family depression is-how hard it hit me AND how hard delivery would be. I'm stopping at two...but I'm trying to soak up every gooey minute like a biscuit sops up butter.
I did 8. Just one at a time. We never had a number and it wasn't until number 8 was born that it seemed that 8 was our number. Then it was enough.
Every little people moment was wonderful. Not so sure about the teenagers........ The grownups however are pretty great. (picklesticks, above, is one of my grownups and you can read just how wonderful she is!)
Love this post, C! I would love two but my husband says one. I'm still hoping for two. I've got one great one already. Don't I owe the world another?
-Amy
Life by Candlelight/Crafting by Candlelight
I have 3 grown children and your description could not have been more accurate. Sometimes I loved them so much I wanted to cry. Now I feel the same way about my grandchildren. I can't get enough of them!! I didn't know how much I would love them until they came into my life. Oh, my family makes everything else in life seem small. Thanks for sharing, Jayne
Oh my how you echo my feelings!
Hubby and I originally wanted two. Then we decided on three. After #3 came we wanted four. Then #4 came. I'd still have another (or two or three) in a heartbeat! I guess it's just something you work out as you go along. Don't put a number on it, and you'll always be happy. ;)
this is my favorite post ever. in my opinion, on the best written of yours. I know I'm nobody, but I'm just saying.
I was laughing so hard my three year old asked me what was so funny. Mmmm... teeny children ARE scrumptious
Oh how I can relate to this. I just love you.
I have 6....you lose your sanity after 3 and the shoes 'issue' becomes stagnant, at best. But I have/had many kisses/hugs to make up for it :)
That was a great post. It was just what I needed on this middle of summer day, where my children are tearing apart my house. I have 4 and they are amazing and crazy. I will admit at times it feels a bit insane and unbearable (yesterday) but most of the time it is awesome.
Oh, go for four. :)
this post had me SO excited at the beginning. I for one do not have children (though I think I am pregnant...shh don't tell!) BUT I've always wanted at least 5 kids and I am sticking to it.
And to be honest, I'm so sad to be hearing from ALL my friends that have babies the same "I used to want 10 children now we're going to stick with 2"
I really thought you were going to say above it all you are still going to have lots and lots. I hope you do.
Look at your childhood, wasn't it grand? and don't you think most of that grand-ness was due to your large familia?
I'm learning it's a dieing artform - this having lots of kids thing.
I'm really not trying to be rude, just something I've noticed lately.
And she's back! Feels like you have described my heart's desire. I wished for more, but was happy with two. Now I wish for lots of grandbabies!
of all the things you've written, that i've read, this is the best. ever.
i saw myself in a lot of this post - you have such a way of writing about how life really is. this is my quandary indeed - part of me wants lots of kids and part of me thinks i'm already going crazy! :)
fantastic post!
I especially love this one. My four are all grown now... but now I'm relishing in the hugs and sloppy kisses of grandchildren! It's the absolute BEST!!
I vote 4 because you do it so well.
I have four and I want at least one more. Maybe two. I always swore I wouldn't have kids after I turned 35, and here I am... 35. And I can't stop.
You should have a dozen.
Me too. Many days I ask God if he is still serious about the no-more-children-for-me-thing. I would take 15 more and NO I am not exaggerating. I get giddy at the thought of more but saddened that it isn't happening for me. I wish you the best and many, many more children :)
Wanted a basketball team with substitutes. But I knew with #2 that we'd end with mixed doubles tennis and it's all good. Heavenly Father is wise/merciful in what He sends our way, and the children we do have are blessing and challenge enough for us! Good luck finding your balance.
This question, "how many children?" is on replay in my mind. It wasn't until recently that we felt that we had a choice in the matter.
We always wanted a bunch of children. After my third was born I said, "Let's have three more!"
However, when reality sets in: my husband's health/age, the amount of money it takes to feed and clothe these children, as well as keep them doctored, dentisted, diapered...all on a school teacher's salary?
I still want three more, but I have decided it is wise to make the decision one at a time, with a prayerful heart.
And we're pretty sure about another one (which is a relief to me!) I just hope when it is time to be done, God will help me to be okay with it!
It's hard to go wrong trading Popsicles for kisses!
I always say: "One at a time... unless it's twins."
And that refers to babies.
Not kisses.
;-)
I want four just because it sounds like such a round number. That's just my OCD talking.
I'm a new mommy of a just-turned 4 month old (my hair is falling out like mad, too!) and I am SO IN LOVE and my husband and I are already talking about more... they are just too precious for words! I love this entry - it's just perfect! And SO true!
Ha, we say the same, 3 maybe four, but that is if we can get out of our po-dunk modular home we naively bought when first married. I know you can make kids share rooms, but they are so tiny, I don't know if I can do that, and babe number 3 is due in dec.
But if it was strictly based on how amazing children are, then we would have 4 for sure if not 5 ;)
~C
I think this is quite possibly my favorite post of all time ... it warmed my heart and put a smile in my soul.
I know exactly how you feel.
I always wanted 6. I like the sound of 6. I have 4. boy, girl, boy, girl. I wonder how long that pattern would hold. we will never know because we are staying at 4. Shame, I would have liked knowing the answer to the pattern question.
I also wanted lots of children. Then the Good Lord (who has a most delicious sense of humor) blessed me with four the first time out. I understand that it's exactly what I asked for.....I wanted 'children', never asking for 'A baby', always 'children.' But, that was enough to scare me away from trying again. And still, it has never been a secret that I still wanted more, but I was too afraid that they still wouldn't come one at a time. :0)
EGO! So true. Mine gets in my way all the time and until I read your post I don't think I realized that was what I was tripping over. Thanks for making the connection and putting it out there.
We have two. The first one came after a single attempt. The second one not so much (three years, two miscarriages and a Clomid IUI later). So, now I am about to be 37 and the tick tocking is getting pretty darn loud. How does one decide if you're family is complete? Having one was a no-brainer. Same with two. Going to three seems like a much bigger decision. I better figure something out one way or another or time will decide it for me.
With Ever's cute chubby cheeks ... I would need at least 10 kiddos. I couldn't have written this post better myself. Love those littles!
I've read for a long time but never commented - somehow my comments never seem up to par with your witty commentary on life and the feelings it evokes from me . . . but today I must comment! I love everything you said here about motherhood. I have four children (my oldest turns six tomorrow!!!) and you just oh so perfectly summed up my journey called motherhood. Thank you cJane. Lacey
PS - I think we could be kindred spirits if I lived in Utah instead of NC. I just know you'd love me (wink, wink).
You have put my current feelings into the most amazing description! I am right there with you! These babies are so wonderful and yet there are still things I'd like to do. Balance is the answer I'm told!
P.S. You're amazing!
I feel the same. I want lots and lots of babies, but 4 tweens, teens, missionaries, weddings, pregnancies is all that I can handle. 4 is it and our family is all here. I know it. I just tell my kids they have to have lots more kids than I had. :)
That post gave me anxiety. 3 children is my max right now. I would be a terrible mother to lots of children. I can barely keep it together with what I have.
And then they become teenagers...! Their heads don't smell so nice. You'd better keep having babies so there's always some snuggles to get from someone!
A lot of children is so spectacular. Not lying.
But then they grow up and leave you. And that sucks.
I can't believe how much she looks like her daddy. Hopefully she'll get hair one day!
And then they become teenagers...! Their heads don't smell so nice. You'd better keep having babies so there's always some snuggles to get from someone!
Ever is just adorable in that photo! And yes, I too agree with Chup--four sounds great lol! I was thinking maybe go for a pattern? Rumor has it that your son's name starts with an "A." IF that be the case, you have an "E" for Ever so maybe you can go boy, girl, boy, girl and have an A, E, I, O, but then we have a problem because YOU might feel badly for not using "U"! Oh my goodness I have too much time on my hands, do you need a sitter? LOL! Lori
I either want 2 or 4. I've got 2...but do I want 2 more? I'm not deciding until after the baby is a year old! I can't think clearly until then.
My mom wanted lots of children, so she kept having them until the first ones became teenagers. Then she didn't want more children. She made it to 7 before that happened.
I'm scared at how much I never want to stop having kids... and I have c-sections. I'm at three and it's so much fun, I can hardly stand the thought of not having more and more and more. I feel like a crazy person. What's worse, is that my husband wants to be done because of economy, both ours and the nation's. It's not a good enough reason for me. Our children are just so wonderful. Each one of them! I want to re-populate the world with them! ha! My grandmother-in-law told me that she still gets baby hungry - and she's in her mid-80's, had 8 children, and oodles of grandchildren and great-grandchildren. She says that all the grandbabies help with the baby hunger. I hope!!! I can't do this forever, but I really want to!!!
Lol! I read the title of the post and it pulled on my heart strings, sob :'{ Yes I thought, cjane will have lots of kids and she will be so good at it and I will be so jealous that it isn't me with lots of kids.
Then I read the post.....
In describing yourself you described me!
Before I'd had any children I had my heart set on lots and lots of kids. After I had my first I said, no more! After I had my second I thought, I want more!
Now we have three..... We are done. And yet still at the back of my mind there is that want, the want of a large family with tons of kids. Just like what I grew up with.
Not just lots of siblings, but lots of friends...
I loved this post. Thank you.
I talked to a woman at the park this week and she had 7, and she handled them beautifully. She gave me a confidence that I can have as many as I should, right now that is three, but most likely with more to come... If you figure out how to tame baby hairs do share, mine is coming out by the handfulls.
I think this is my favorite post yet :)
I wish I had writers block like you :) I love everything you write!!!!!!!! You are the best... I wish you many more snuggly babies to cherish.
Four.
That way everyone has a partner to ride the roller coasters.
I can't decide if crying every time I think about whether I'll have more means I'm done or I'm not. But I'm 43! I have five! We have been so blessed!
We wanted 4-6, then had one and wondered how we could survive to 4. Three came along...then more than six years went by without anymore. Now I have five!!! Life is full of surprises. I hope you have lots of both children & surprises (the good ones).
It is wonderful to be the mommy--and sometimes I think it's the hardest job in the world because there is always so much more to be done! Still--it's the best job too.
Well on the upside, once you get to three you go through all of their names before you get the right one. So you'll be able to tick that box.
Or is that just me?
And when you get to three, well there's a whole world of busy going on. Awesome busy but busy.
Still there is a part of me that thinks four would be nice BUT (and here comes the ego bit) I'll be 50 and still have two teenagers! Eek!
I have no doubt you'll know just how many kids are perfect for your family!
YES! And eventually (as in my case) the ego goes away as the memories of irreverence and baby hairs fade and the next thing you know you are having ten kids and wearing practical (but still fashionable) shoes. Babies are magical.
I too want lots of children but I'm o.k with two for now
I have two kids and thats it for me. I just dont have the room, the patience, the money, the right car... for more kids. I love my two more then anything in the world so im just thankful for what i have. Most of my friends have stopped at two kids as well. Each to their own but i take my hat off to women who have large families, wish i could know how they manage!
i had just finished asking my daughter for 'please one more kissy' when i read this!
I too ache for a house full of children, so I am totally with ya!
We have 4 children, and I still look at larger families with dreamy eyes.
My sanity tells me I should stick to 4
My hubby comes from a large family, so it's so wonderful when we get together.
By the way, you write beautifully for someone who has baby brain ;)
Love the pic & the post!
I want lots of kids too. We haven't started yet, but I imagine them all the time.. thanks for keeping it real for me though! I love the honest way you blog. You go girl!
Three is good.
And...cjane is back!
I know the feeling. I type this, and then glance down at my sweet little babe who is torturing me with her sweet, toothless grin...and I am smitten...all over again.
She's number 4. And she's so dang sweet that I'm definitely up for number 5!
Amen.
I am convinced when I have three, I will convince myself to have four, then maybe, just maybe... No, it is too early to say.
I'm so glad I'm not the only mother who insists on licking her children.. just sometimes.. maybe sometimes just pretending, but sometimes the real deal :)
Courtney, I could have written this post. I wante so many children I thought my heart would burst with love for all the children I wanted to have. God blessed us with what he felt we needed, and it was good. I can't help but smile when I think of my children.
Off Topic; This afternoon as I was leaving school I spotted the missionaries walking past the turn I making. I turned around, pulled over and we talked for a good hour or so. Such amazing young men with a wealth of information to share. I love talking with them and praying. I feel so good, as if I am on cloud nine, after a conversation with them. BTW, I am going to be baptized as is my husband. I am ready.
--Mari
Oh I love this.
This is exactly where I am too. I just had my first though and not 3 weeks after she was born I was exclaiming, "I want 10 more!"
We originally said 2. Had one and said 3. My MIL says, "nope, 2 or 4 - have to have an even number. They pair off."
I don't think i can stop at just 2 but 4 seems like a lot. Sigh.
I wanted 8 'til I had one. My husband talked hard to get me from 3 to 4. And I am so, so glad he did:) But 4...is enuff. And control?? Oh! my dear wait until driver's training...you will want to close your eyes. I did.
I came from a family of nine, my husband from a family of seven. So in my mind eight sounded good, and that's the order I put in to the Lord. "Eight, please." One and Two came quickly (both girls, just two years apart) and then came the time I call the long wait. Where were Three, Four, and all the rest? I had empty arms, an aching heart, and a serious case of green envy for the friends and sisters having effortless pregnancies, on demand. That's when I gave up. Or, rather, I decided that the Lord had other plans, and even if I didn't understand them, I would try to get on board. Ten years behind schedule, darling Three surprised us. I was forty, and my husband was forty-six. She's our caboose, the steeple on the chapel, the frosting on the cake, the most wonderful thing to happen since Two and One. And next week she turns 13. Bliss.
Congratulations Thorney, I follow you in the comments and I am thrilled for you and your family!! Its a wonderful step you are ready to take!!!!!!
That was one of my favorite posts!! Ah, the desire for a quiver full - but the reality of 3 or 4. 4 is a good number. That's what I have. And now that my oldest is 15 and youngest is 8 - I wish I had 4 more!
I love the post. It was a joy to read. It was a reminder of what I want, but I could never say it as well as you.
We had three and it took us six months of will we wont we to decide to try for number four. She I am sure took one look from heaven and said I'm not going to live with them without backup So 5 & 6 Came too( yes triplets) it was a bit of a shock but now 6 seems just right, I still get that baby hungry feeling, but Heavenly Father says we're done so we're done!!!
I wanted a lot of kids. But I get too sick when I'm preggo. So I'm going to try to have another one (maybe two more if I don't get so sick), and then we're going to foster kids. :)
I wanted, we wanted, lots of kids.
Turns out that's not under our control. I hated learning that.
So, we have one. One wonderful one. We're parents!
Now he is 18, leaving for college.
I am Fresh Hell, Texas and this summer on the inside my heart is breaking while on the outside I cheer my boy on.
THis post made me smile all over because I feel exactly the same. wanting lots of little ones. the ego when someone comments on my kids clothes, adoring all their cuteness (and wanting to eat them as you said in another post) we may never be able to fully absorb the love we feel
We're gonna try for at least half a dozen .. and I pray that we have the conversation, "Is this ours or the neighbor's kid?" I love this post! Thank you! You made my day!
loved this post! :) I so totally agree with the crazy wispy hair poking out. I never realized how much goes with being a mommy! It is the best job we could be give!
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