Mom and Dad,
I am feeling a little lonely for you both tonight.
Sometimes I wish you could see my babies. I am so proud of them.

Being home with them during these slow, sweaty, summer days is the greatest joy of my life right now. We eat Popsicles, we lounge in the green room, we fill up the pool and wade our feet, we nap, we eat tacos, we wait for the sunset and put the babies to bed.
Every day seems to creep along at a lazy pace, and then at night, tired from summer's spell, I crawl into bed and ask Chup, "Where did the day go?"
I was reading in the Book of Mormon tonight and liked how Jacob described the experience of life,"and also our lives passed away like as it were unto us as a dream."
That is how these summer days feel like to me, dream-like, dreamy.

Ever is lovely. At night I put her in the crib, turn on her some sweet music and the fanny and sing to her, "Good night Ever Jane, I will see you in the morning" and she actually rolls over and goes to sleep. I think this is quite phenomenal because she sleeps until ten and then wakes up the next morning with the brightest smile face.

Remember this guy?

He likes swimming, he says, "Iwantswinning." When we take him he get so excited he clenches his fists and jaw and laughs hysterically. But when we can't go swinning we just hang out at home with "shuga" meaning Popsicle and "shuga" also meaning motorcycle. He likes to conserve his vocabulary.



Remember this guy too?

He thought he was busy when he worked his Big Fancy job, but I'd wager he's about seven times more busy now that he is home full time. He has taken over all the household laundry partly because he is good at it, and partly because the laundry room is next to his office. He's always carrying big baskets of well-scented laundry up the stairs. Today he made a laundry line the full length of the backyard, and on it he dried all of The Chief's little boy shorts.
And Ever has found heaven in lying on his chest with her entire fist in her mouth.

As for me,

I am trying to be good. I am trying to have the patience to appreciate the dream I am in (it's such a sweet dream). I am trying to remember three daily things: repentance, hydration and to kiss my Chup as much as possible.
Strangely enough, the kissing is the easiest to remember.
Love you,
Courtney Jane





55 Pieces of Opinion:
This is almost too personal to comment on, but I just have to say how sweet and adorable your family is that above all...you are an amazing example of a great wife and doting mother. I only wish I was half the mother you are are...I mean it.
I want the scripture reference
and that second photo - ever in the blue dress..... looks exactly like you..thats a courtney expression on her face!!
This was one of my favorite posts of yours CJane. Enjoy your dreamy life... Your parents would be proud.
Ever is Ever so lovely- see what I did there, but really she is, I can see why your struggling not to eat her, for she looks so sweet.
the chief is a right handsome thing too, you make a beautiful family..and i like your hair like that! x
Oh I love this post. I am off to check out what else Jacob said, because I have just been feeling of late that my life has passed away like a dream. Thank you for sharing your discovery.
Oh my goodness... in that second photo down, Ever is doing her best C Jane impression. Too sweet!
Courtney - This was a wonderful post, full of all those reminders that we should all remember of those special things in our own lives. Thanks for the gentle reminders.
Also, your photographs really added to your words.
Here's to many more happy summer days at Retro House, and for the inhabitants therein
Sorry you miss them so much. They're missing you, too, huh?
Your family is beautiful. Ever is a little cjane!
Take care.
I love Ever's chins. All of them.
Such a lovely post. What really attracted me to you and Nie's blogs were how you both seem to appreciate the simple things in life. Both of you have taught me a lot about gratitude and taking moments throughout the day to count your blessings. Thank you for that.
you are looking totally lovely in that last photo. but they're all lovely, really.
(i also dont think its at all weird to want to eat your babies... my family is all about eating their young)
What a sweet glimpse into your life. I just got a call last night from my Utah daughter, saying she felt lonely for me -- must be going around...
Dear Sister Courtney,
What a beautiful blog. ;.)
With your parents away on their mission what a special day they will have to read about your family.
What a treat, being a grammie, it is very hard when your children are far away and you cannot cuddly them. Having your grandbabies far away even harder, when you want to smooch their cheeks and hug them tight.
Thank you for the cuddly pictures and feelings of summer with your family.
Through your blog you can feel the love in your home with your family.
love,
Sister Petersen
aka Grammie Star Wars
I couldn't imagine being without my parents after having a baby.
How touching........... I'm in love with your writing....... hugs to the children, Sherry
.,,,,,,,, almost forgot, I went to the mayor's blog at your advice and hope I get the tickets....... it seems to me, if you did not send people his way, no one would be their.... just a thought.
That passage from Jacob is going to be the scripture of the day. Or maybe the week or the month. Things are tough right now, but the dreamy parts should not be forgotten.
You are always reminding me the beauty of motherhood. Thank you.
Very sweet.
OH WHY did you let us in on your sweet love note to your mom and dad...now you have made me cry...and I KNOW your mom is crying....love you Courtney
Such a beautiful page. Thank you for sharing.
you don't know me but can i just tell you that i love you?? like really really love you?? you make me lol all the time and then you give me the warm and fuzzies in my heart region. i am also living a sweet dream. i just had my first baby and we cuddle all day long. and in between cuddles i come to your blog and you make me smile.
god bless your parents.
and god bless you because i would miss mine like crazy if they got called to be mission presidents.
sending my love and good zen,
xoxo
What a sweet post. I seriously want to visit your green room! ;) Cute babies!
Awesome! Thanks for that!
Yay! I have always wanted to be the first to comment!!!
Your dream life is amazing and your children are beautiful.
you look gorgeous girl. kissing daily looks good on you ;)
i am sure you miss them and i am sure they miss you and your family!! the kids are the cutest!
Aw! I miss my mum and dad too - they live so far away. It's one of the reasons I started a blog -to keep them up to date with everything that happens in their grandchildren's lives. Fantastic photo of you at the end of your post - you look great!
Hen, you seriously are the most beautiful family. Your kids on toast, light snacking where I live. And as for your man. wow.
Court,
Enjoy every minute of the dream...it does go by so fast. The kind of moments you described are the ones I treasure most. My two oldest girls are graduating from BYU in two weeks. We went on an awesome trip to London to celebrate and we ran into your cool brother with his theatre students. He was so kind to us and he even put me on his blog. How do I rate?:)
(You, my dear, are an inspiring writer. Thanks.)
Such a sweet post/letter. I have such similar feelings about summer, and life, and mothering, and loving. You put it to words so well. Thanks :)
-Christine
Such a sweet, sweet post. Thanks for sharing.
I just thought I'd let you know that I LOVED this post! My mom and my siblings lived a couple of states away when my littles were little. I missed my family so much! Our visits were so sweet, but trips back to the airport were always very sad. When my youngest was five, we relocated to Washington where my mom and siblings all live. I love being so close. My sister lives just around the corner and my brother and my mom are only about thirty minutes away. I KNOW what it is like to miss family because I have been where you are right now. It is hard. Even in a room full of people, you can still feel lonely. I pray that the time passes quickly for you. Until then, keep in touch the best way you can. I LOVED this post. HUGS!!!
This was a sweet, sweet post. I'll bet those parents of yours miss you and your babies, how could they not? But these pics were almost enough to make it more bearable for them. I think you are a lovely woman and mother and writer and wife. And I admire your whole family. yay for good mission presidents!
I truly enjoyed this post! You have a beautiful family and I especially love the closing of your note where you talk about trying to have the patience to enjoy the dream you are in. That is such a gem and great wisdom for all of us mothers and wives to remember.
I am never going to stop nursing my baby b/c whenever I look at your beautiful Ever Jane I get a twinge of jealousy and want mine to be as yummy and bootilicious with all that slobber and those sweet rolls.
My husband and I were bumped from a flight last week in St Louis and it was so late at night we had to find a flight and I had full "floating devices" as you've previously mentioned and needed to feed the baby and we didn't know anyone... but I kept thinking "mmm maybe I could call cjane's parents at the mission home..." In the end we chose the comfort inn and ate pizza at midnight. I bet going to the mission home would have been a lot better.
I love reading your blog. Especially while I'm nursing. It reminds me not to give up.
Enjoy your site muchly. Your parents will be home before you know it!
janc
I loved this post. Especially love sweet Ever's cheeks. So cute!
CJane - I like you. Even though I'm not your Mom & Dad and am almost never in Provo so may sadly never meet you, I like to think we're friends. I have three girls age 5, 3 and 3 months (I want to drizzle her with wildflower honey, sliced strawberries and a dusting of cocoa) and have spent most of my young motherhood stressed out and now the oldest is leaving me for kindergarten and I'm wondering how I can calm down and love my motherhood wholeheartedly, like you portray in this post, before they all grow up as fast as the first. Thanks for over and over writing about how much you love it. I like you.
Ever is too cute for words. Those checks..edible.:)
I think every Momma's prayer is to enjoy the days we have. I too was just thinking how quickly they pass.
Pictures of Ever make me long for more squishy babies. I have to settle for 4 of them. She is so beautiful!
You look beautiful in that picture. Motherhood looks good on you.
to reference another's comment "YES" we see that facila expression in picture #2 of EVER everyday on your banner holding the Nutella! Really quite remarkably similar...will she have he mama's wit too!!!!
Keep on enjoying your family as you so obviously do :) My kids are getting older and I find myself less fulfilled, busy as I once was. The little years are so rewarding, enjoy :)
Your family continues to leaveme in awe. Courtney, you have such a gift for sharing your family with the world and it is a joy to, through your words, feel the love you have for each and every member along side each second shared together loving on each other whether it be doing laundry or kissing.
Blessings, Mari
I love it!
Especially as it's the exact same way I feel about my two sweet morsels of gooey cuteness. I also have a little boy (3) and a baby girl (7 months- eep! time! SLOW DOWN!).
Dreamy is JUST how I'd describe this part of my life too- Two young babies, a tall dark and handsome hubby, and the gospel at its fullest.
Does it get any better? I submit to you that it does NOT!
I heart your blog CJ.
Wow, you look so much like your mother in that picture! Amazing... such beautiful women! And Ever looks like you...
Why do you do this to me? Now I'm all weepy before bed. But a good kind of weepy, ya know?
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful!
You and your family, beautiful!
It is such a sweet dream, you are so right.
What a great post!! One that makes me so glad I read your blog each day!! I love the funny, hilarious posts, and the ones that get us all riled up, but it's these that make me feel all weepy and happy at the same time that make me the most grateful I found your blog forever ago!! Thanks chiquita for reminding me of the little things!!! Have a great day today and enjoy the concert tonight!!!
Dreamy, I like that phrase. I love the simplicity and the little reminders hidden all over this post. Loved it!
I love love love the photo of you with Ever at the end. You look beautiful!
I have been out of commission for the past couple months. Trip after trip after trip. It has been wonderful, but I'm VERY glad to be home. I just saw your comment. I feel somewhat like a superstar {I mean CJane commented on my blog}.
Your children are lovely. They look so much alike! Ever is a chunky little thing. My favorite type of baby!!
I love how Ever looks just like you in the second picture and just like her dad in the last picture! My babies are tricky that way also.
I miss my parents too. Indianapolis, IN mission president. Luckily I am close enough to drive to visit.
Courtney, you look great! And, I can easily see why you could eat her (Ever) up. I felt the same about my beautiful, chubby, luscious, kissable babies. :)
courtney you are the most beautiful woman i know, ven though i don't really know you. you are such an inspiration. if i were your mom i'd be so happy to receive this and so thankful to have a daughter like you.
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